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[Jan. 19th, 2007|05:06 pm] |
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WOW!!! so i haven't been on this thing in FOREEEEEVERRR! i dont really plan to start back, but i just feel like writing a little bit right now...i only have one thing on my mind really.
i love Jesus!!!!!!!!!! he is wonderful and amazing, and powerful and mighty, and gracious and merciful, and beautiful and sweet, and forgiving and compassionate, and loving and wise! but he also lets us know when we're doign wrong..he doesn't stand for luke-warm-ness. you're either all in, or not in at all. and i'm all in!!!!! i just love God so much! he has blessed me in so many ways, i cant even begin to count them all! no, things aren't going as good as they could right now, but they're also not as bad as they could be!! i'm able to keep a smile on my face, and a jingle in my step because i know God is with me every second of every day! he's there to pick me up when i fall(which is often), dry my eyes when i'm sad, comfort me when i'm hurting, and even give me a little reality check when necessary. when i feel like i'm all alone, i realize that i dont have to! with God, you're never alone because he's ALWAYS with you!! there's nothing my God cannot do! he can take the worst of the worst, the person with the deepest darkest most horrible past, and turn them into something beautiful with his grace, mercy, and love! i know it seems like im bragging, but in a way i guess i am! i'm excited about the many wonderful things that come from my savior! and i want everyone to know!
God is good people!
Psalm 65:3--"though our hearts are filled with sins, God forgives them all."
Psalm 37:4--"delight yourself in the Lord, and He wil give you the desires of your heart."
Proverbs 18:10--"the nam eof the Lord is a strong tower, the righteous run into it and are saved."
--Laura Lynn :) |
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| i'm tired...why am i not in bed?!? |
[Nov. 21st, 2006|02:22 pm] |
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so its 2 am, and i'm still wide awake. why can't laura sleep??, you may be asking yourself. well folks, thats the million dollar question!!! if you can answer it, you won't get a million dollars, but you will help me out a whole bunch! and who knows, if you come up with a cure for people who have tried everything and still cant sleep, you very well may get a million dollars, and probably lots more than that! so anyway, i'm just sittin here, wishing i was asleep, bored out of my mind. writing is occupying my time, since, ya know, i cant sleep. and its crazy because im soooooooo tired! i dont think sleep likes me very much..... |
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| agape--never ending--unconditional--no strings attached |
[Nov. 9th, 2006|12:01 pm] |
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i know my entries are becoming few and far between, but i've been so busy and things have been really crazy lately. i'm mainly writing this because i need prayers. a lot of things have happened recently, and life's just not so easy right now. on one hand things are wonderful, better than ever!!! my family is absolutely amazing and i have NO idea what i'd do without them! and im so happy with the love life area of my life...i wouldn't really call it a love life though...and im not in a relationship. thats pretty much impossible when you're 2500 miles apart....but God's continuing to bless me in that area and im so thankful for that very special blessing!!!
but on the other hand, just about every other area of my life is a huge question mark. God has tested my faith over and over again, and i feel like i cant handle anymore! He's allowed thing after thing after thing after thing to come my way, and not once have i doubted Him and His ability to pull me through.....but at the same time i guess i have doubted Him in a way because i find myself asking "why?"---im at the point where i dont feel like i can handle one more thing, not even the tiniest thing! and by feeling that way, i feel horrible! how dare i complain about my problems, knowing it could be so much worse?! but i know God understands my pain and confusion, and He understands that im just scared, and tired. im so tired.
at the end of the day, i realize that He is the King of kings, and the Lord of lords, and that He knows what He's doing......unfortunately i'm just a human, a humble servant trying to make the best of things, and i still wish i knew WHY!?! |
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[Sep. 30th, 2006|12:14 am] |
wow...i havent written anything in this is a looooooooong time.
i just wanted to say that i am in love!!! yep, i said it. laura lynn meek is in love. and it feels wonderful...never thought i'd see the day!
what a feeling :)
thats all.
:) :) :) |
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| been a long time gone...yeah, i know |
[Aug. 29th, 2006|10:14 pm] |
ok, WOW...i haven't updated this thing in a looooooooong time...sorry for all you avid readers...im sure you're jumpin for joy now.
anyway, the first two weeks at school have been wonderful!!!!!!! i absoutely LOVE una!!! the classes we've been taking at the student rec center are wonderful..AB ATTACK and starting tomorrow BUTTS & GUTS, and HIP HOP!! haha!!!!! i wasn't too sure about coming here, but i knew God had His reasons, and i'm starting to figure them out...slowly, but He's showing me in His own subtle, not-so-evident ways.
and thats my next point. I LOVE MY GOD!!! He's been so good to me so far this year, all my life really, but especially recently! If you know me, you're probably thinking...what are you happy about??---things haven't been going too well for me lately. i mean i cant complain, cause i'm still alive and able to see another one of God's beautiful days, but things just haven't been tip-top.....BUT, my dear sweet Savior has been teaching me things through all of these trials, and i'm finally starting to catch on. me, candice, amberlee, lindsay, amanda, and caleb all went to The Well tonight at Highland Baptist, and it was amazing!! God's doing some awesome things there, and i'm so glad i get to be a part of it!!! we're about to start a study on relationships, and how to be the men & women God wants us to be so we'll be good husbands & wives. and i feel like God put me there right at this specific point in time to teach me something. i'm not sure what yet...but i have a feeling. He's definitely telling me things, i just have to get myself where i need to be, so i'll be able to listen the right way.........soooooo, pretty m uch i just love my Lord and can't wait to see what all He has planned for me in the near future!!!--something that stuck out to me tonight was when Ed(the preacher) said, "today i'm getting my identity back, a daughter of The King!"...that was just AMAZING to me!!!!! it meant so much more to me than i can explain on here, but Jesus knows whats going on in my heart, cause He's the one who stirred it up to begin with!!!
just pray for me please...i need help doing this. college is hard, in many ways.....but God is good, and He's SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO worth it!! all this stuff will fade away over time, but He's the one thing that will NEVER change, and He will NEVER leave you!! thats what im learning....people are fickle. feelings change from one minute to the next, and you can never really tell what a person is truly thinking. you can be completely in love, so sure that n othing will ever happen to change that, and then all of a sudden something happens to make you question that....but God--His love will NEVER change!!!!!! that's a promise from The Man himself, and THAT is something i will never question!! yes, i am in love.....but as big as that love is, the love i have for my Savior far surpasses even that!!!! and i know without a doubt that my God loves me more than i can even fathom!!!!!!!! so, im not woried anymore. God's not gonna leave me stranded, and i've finally got a peace about that :)
soooo, God's good, life is good, and with all that said, i'm good!!!
i hope everyone is doing well!!!! i'm gonna try to update this thing more often, but im just SOOO busy now!
this love i have for you, this love in my heart, well, it goes all the way to the moon and back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
--Laura Lynn |
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| i think i lost my head somewhere around 12:00 today.... :0 |
[Aug. 12th, 2006|10:00 pm] |
TOMORROW..............TOMORROW is the BIIIIGGGGG day. i'm moving tomorrow. this time tomorrow night i will officially be out of my house & on my own...........................
im scared to death.
--meme (my grandmother) shared this quote with me a while back, and i think it applies in many ways in my life right now.
"teach me to trust in your timing, and acknowledge that you know best."
i know God's got a plan for me. He has me in the palm of His hands, carrying me through these challenging times. He knows im scared, and He's working extra over-time to chase all of my fear away. He knows my heart, and He knows how fragile i am. He knows every single thing im feeling right now, and He knows just what to do to calm my nerves. I have to be willing to TRUST in His timing, and ACKNOWLEDGE that He really does know best. thats why i like that quote so much. God's the man, and He knows what He's doing.
ok i still have a little packing left to finish...i cant decide what all pictures i want to take with me--like my paintings and quotes and things people have painted for me....i want to take it all....but unfortunately there isn't enough room for eeeeeverything. im gonna miss my room...it makes me happy!
goodnight people. next time i write in this thing i'll be in flo-town!! |
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| college college college--starting to seem like a BAD word... |
[Aug. 7th, 2006|02:05 pm] |
i dont think ive ever been more unsure about so many things at once. how do you decide what's going to be the best thing for you when you cant even think straight?!?! im supposed to be sorting out all my clothes right now, and deciding which ones i want to take with me to college...but how in the heck am i supposed to do that?? thats the last thing on my mind right now. from the moment i woke up this morning, things have been racing through my head, swirling around in my brain and causing mass confusion. im scared of this thing called college. im not sure im ready....i mean, i want to be out on my own, starting my life.........but im so scared at the same time. i cant decide if i want to do sororotiy or not. on one hand, i really really want to...but on the other hand, i dont. and every time i think about it, i find more reasons NOT to do it than reasons TO do it....i just cant decide. i think i know what im supposed to do, God's made it pretty clear to me...but im just scared to make a decision period. what if it's the wrong one?!?!?!?!!!!! oh me i dont know...
and im scared about other things. what if im just being stupid. what if i was just completely blinded...what if i am completely blinded....i just dont know. and what blows my mind and makes NO sense to me at all is that im willing to do this. im content & im willing to stay that way. i dont want to look around, i dont want to take time, i dont want anything besides what ive got, period. i just dont understand because ive never been this way. its a huge decision and im actually willing to make it, but i just dont know. i dont know, i dont know, i dont know....i simply just do not know.
and thats about all i can say right now...i just dont know.... |
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| "i belong to the best of you"-josh kelley |
[Jul. 30th, 2006|12:18 am] |
"Dear God, make me a bird.. So i can fly far.. Far far away..."-anna farris smith
annie said this to me a while back and i wrote it down cause i LOVED it.
it has A LOT of meaning to me now.
im sure everybody knows where i'd fly if i were a bird.....
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| "green eyes, yeah the spot light shines upon you" |
[Jul. 27th, 2006|11:43 pm] |
"Can miles truly separate us from love? If we want to be with someone we love, aren't we already there?" - Richard Bach
"I don’t care if its foolish to feel this way
I will take my chances with you despite what people say
People say, "Pay no mind, you don’t want to waste your time
Loving one when there’s so much more for you to see."
But they don’t got what I’ve got, the jackpot, fits me like a glove
Caught up in your love.."-ari hest
"you do something to me that i cant explain, so would i be out of line if i said i miss you?...i know i'll see you again, whether far or soon, but i need you to know that i care and i miss you..."-incubus
"You're the words that come out easy,
And I am speechless at best.
Your star it seems to shine above the rest.
You're the face before the cameras,
The smile i'd like to earn.
The closest thing to perfect,
In a hollywood to burn.
You're the beauty that is deeper,
Than eyes can merely see.
The closest thing to perfect.
But the farthest thing from me."-the juliana theory
"We're at the top of the world,
you and I.
We've got a lot of time
and it sure feels right.
Cause you reached in your pocket
and pulled out a pass
that says you can take me anywhere."-the juliana theory
"...Cause you're the only song I want to hear A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere"-death cab for cutie
aaaaahhhhh.....i just love music! and i really love beautiful music, with beautiful lyrics! there's always a way i can apply it to my life...whether im sad, happy, mad, confused, frustrated, hyper, or in love....whatever im feeling, music is always my therapy. it doesn't talk back, think im stupid, or question me. unlike people, music never judges. it just does its job, which is to either sympathize with you, calm you, or make you happy! it simply plays and plays and plays, sending you off into another world...
goodnight everyone. im off to another world...
:)
OOOH,a bit of news...IM GOING TO SEE PANIC TOMORROW!!! anna was supposed to go with daniel, but shes on vacation with her family, so im the lucky one that gets her ticket!! just me & danny heading to memphis tomorrow...i love my brother & im excited about our mini-road trip together :) |
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| im leaving on a jet plane.....i wish |
[Jul. 19th, 2006|11:53 pm] |
i really want to go to california. theres this guy, and i miss him, and he misses me, and theres just a whole lot of missing going on, and i'd like to stop missing him for like a couple days...sooooo, i think ill buy a plane. im starting a "plane fund"...im welcoming any donations.
why cant i just go to california? whats stopping me? whats really wrong with going for a couple days...i have the money, and id be more than happy to spend it on a little trip. i dont see anything wrong with it. correct me if im mistaken.
"I don’t care if its foolish to feel this way
I will take my chances with you despite what people say
People say, "Pay no mind, you don’t want to waste your time
Loving one when there’s so much more for you to see.
But they don’t got what I’ve got, the jackpot, fits me like a glove"-ari hest
im really sad....my heart hurts. |
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